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Hey.  Guess you came over here to see what the nut case behind this blog is all about.  Well, you can call me Gert.  This is my therapy journal.

You may be wondering why I would choose to make my “condition” public, and the simple answer is – because I can.  The other answer is because forewarned is forearmed, or something along those lines.

I am of a mature age and a fairly decent education.  I can read and write.  One – very well, the other – passable on most days.

I have decided to use this platform to talk about a self-diagnosed condition that I call early morning Personality Disorder, or e.m.PD for short.  Don’t bother looking it up in any of those fancy medical journals, you won’t find it in there because I made it up.  That’s right.  I made it up – the name anyway.  The condition – well, that’s real.  Very real.

This condition is very complex.  The most striking characteristic of e.m.PD is an aversion, of varying degree, to any type of social interaction upon awakening during the early morning hours.  For me, I’m fairly sociable after 10:00 a.m.  If I wake up earlier than that, I need time alone to get my personality adjusted.  Right around 2:00 p.m. everything starts humming and I’m kicking it into high gear.  Eventually, I go to bed, knowing full well that the e.m. hours are coming.  Again.

My shrink, if I could afford one, would probably tell me it’s all in my head, and that I should “explore my feelings” by writing them down before I act on them.  So I’ll just cut out the middle man and skip straight to the therapy.  This is me, exploring out loud.  You can follow along.  Or not.  That’s up to you.